Dr. God Complex

I have been thinking about how to put my thoughts and feelings on paper now for a few days. I received a call from my mom on Friday morning and she let me know that my grandmother (the hot one) was in the hospital. It’s very strange but the whole week prior to this every time I would see my mom’s phone number come up on caller ID I would want to jump out of my skin thinking she was calling with bad news.

This happens to me sometimes, I knew the last time I spoke to my great grandmother was the last time I would ever speak to her. I had a dream once that one of my girlfriends’ boyfriend had an accident, the next morning I told her my dream and she said you have no idea how weird that is, he did in fact get into an accident last night.

The problem with this half gift is that if I try to look for a feeling or a sense about how something will work out...I don’t come up with anything.

Back to my story…my dad left for the East Coast on Sunday morning to help my Uncle and Grandfather take care of getting my grandmother where she needs to be in order to get better. After getting all the facts as to why she is in the hospital it appears that she is suffering from a Psychotic state induced by her doctor which has her taking 20 different medications. When I asked my mom what meds my grandmother was taking, she read me off a list that completely confused me. Vicodin, for back pain, Zanax for nerves, something to make her sleep, something to keep her awake, Morpohine, something to treat ADHD the list went on and on. My mouth was hanging open and all I could think of was “What the F***”.

Was he trying to kill her while making his Pharm reps happy because he was writing prescriptions for their drugs while getting a free lunch everyday? Does he have a garage full of Ping golf clubs? Does he think his “God Complex Degree” from the University of Somewhere Overseas gives him the right to be careless with what he prescribes? Has he lost touch with why he got into medicine to begin with? Or perhaps the perks ARE why he signed up. I personally don’t think Doctors who are educated in other country’s should be allowed to practice medicine in the U.S. – but that is just my opinion, you don’t need to agree with me and I promise not to attempt to sway you. I also refuse to go to a male gynecologist because what does a man really know about the experience of having female equipment? Answer: About as much as a female knows about the male experience.

This morning when I spoke to my dad he told me the hospital thought that my grandmother could be released tomorrow. What we all want is for her to be transferred into a psychiatric facility to detox her and figure out what medications she actually needs. My guess is Dr. God Complex Degree is once again not looking out for her best interest. The problem here is, how do you override the doctors decision? How do you convince him that what he is doing is wrong? Obveously no one wants to tick him off or embarrass him in front of his colleagues because god knows what the ramifications of that would be.

My dad did say she is still not herself and definitely is still not thinking clearly.

Although she is irritated with the chipping polish on her nails and the gray roots in her hair….these ARE good signs.